somewhere_out_there twiggie if i had the courage, i'd talk to you again. i'd ask you to stop hurting yourself so much. you deserve to be happy. your mom steals pot from you, you get high with her. drunk with your stepdad. you've almost died from alcohol poisoning, when i found out i cried and hoped you'd never do that again... i still care about you, even though i'm so far away. 010311 ... mikey hugs 010311 ... dB dude. Freaky. 010311 ... johnny west Or, as a guy I knew liked to say, "beefy". 010311 ... mikey kinky 010311 ... Aimee beneath pale moonlight. Someone's thinking of me, and loving me, tonight. 010311 ... florescent light there lies a cloud of tears and laughter, and peaceful vibrations of harmony an aritificail life that I dream about. A fairy tale. Of perfect feelings all the time. Maybe it was because the only role models I had growing up were those on television. And I think life really should be like that. And feel like that. Happy. Life isn't about being Happy. But forever, I am trying so hard to feel happy. What am I feeling, if I am not happy? Am I sad? Lonely? Is it really possible to be devoid of feeling? What's the point of living if happiness isn't prevailent. I wonder what would happen if I stopped trying. 010311 ... dB It is possible to be devoid of feeling. I have lived like that for three years so far. I only get angry sometimes and that is the only feeling I have. You just set priorities, and feeling is not one of them. 010311 ... Aaron one word. fievle. 011110 ... freakizh i tried to stop it with my own bare hands, but it was so soft and delicate, yet strong that i was afraid of killing it and hurting me in the way. i saw it, running across the corner, jumping from side to side, finally free, ignoring all those opportunities of love dressed in their uniforms ready to school. it was too late. too late to complain. i guess i never paid it something in return, or never understand it at all. however, i know you are there. somewhere, in the outside, hiding from me. just don't forget.. nobody will ever make you feel like i did, Heart. 020201 what's it to you? who go blather from