thinky otterpup god i am so tired i said last night that i'd forgotten how to think she said i probably hadn't thought properly for months and now i have to try and understand the world, in only one way and hope it's the same way as other people undertstand it. but if i can only understand the world in one way, then aren't i missing out on all the other ways to see stuff? although the other ways make me pretty uncomfortable, i don't like them, they aren't familiar. we can see life in different ways. they aren't very nice either. was i born to live: sleep, work, eat, shit, talk, die or live: dream, earn, learn, cry, scream, die or live: wake, compete, consume, wank, express, die or live: doze, drift, hope, stare, beg, die all ends the same way. but the world works a certain way and it's not worth fighting the way it works. so just choose a path and decide that's life? how do i process everyone else? i can't reach any understanding because all we show of ourselves is what we think will gain us the least pain in return. not very honest. the thinky thoughts i'm having have already been trodden on, they're used and have other peoples teeth marks in them, so are they really worth thinking? can i really stop myself from thinking? wouldn't that be pure relief. and at the same time i don't want to stop thinking because someday someone might discover me and my thoughts and that could be good. don't want to drop out of the thinking race, it's a competition for who goes mad first. i think i'm winning. 040816 ... stork daddy these are the questions that are asked. 040816 ... stork daddy these are the questions that are asked. 040816 ... otterpup when and why and what questions? the ones that end with questions about questions? which questions? and who asks them? 040816 what's it to you? who go blather from