some_days her it occurs to me slowly 010730 ... bijou it occurs to me slowly her hair is as gold as the sun and it smells like candy and her eyes are like the deep green and blue beautiful leveling and her stomach rumbles and heaves and my stomach contracts thinking of it the sun and the sky, how obvious! things that don't even need to be said, everybody already knows. but somehow it affects her differently. somehow the words of the songs touch so deep, ack! like you can feel it physically inside you in your stomach in your teeth christ. it is good right now. 010730 ... bijou rolling in over the horizon smells like a million miles of heaven i dream in tornadoes and broken glass 010801 ... Arwyn I just don't want to roll out of bed. I just don't want to put on the happy face. 020304 ... g h o s t it just isn't worth the trouble to chew through the leather straps in the morning 020305 ... yummychuckle I don't eat. somedays I eat too much. but at the end of the day, my stomach and I are never happy at the same. one is always angry at the other. 020305 ... yummychuckle same time* 020305 ... souless wanderer some days i feel as though i actually am beautiful. I feel i might actually have a chance. I feel happy. These days are few, but still, they're there. 040506 ... love & hate I feel as though she's here. Some days i feel as though she is standing next to me. Some days i can feel her presence. Some days i can feel her touch. Some days i can smell her scent. Some days i can taste her. Some days i can feel her lips upon mine. Some days she kisses my forehead. Some days we are happy together again. Some days our souls are completely entwined. Some days she is in my head. Some days she is inside of me. Some days we are as one. Some days she is mine. Some days i am still her's. Some days we are what we were and will always be. If only Some days came every day. 040506 ... pete it was a good night, got to meet her mother as she is in town for Easter (she works and lives in Cairo, though they still own a house here). a lovely funny arab woman, i know where b. gets it from... but to come home to the house smelling like cigarettes and my roommate watching a movie with half of his family (they migrate in herds) including a 5 year old... well there goes the old relaxing infront of the tv idea... at least they could have not closed the windows while smoking (they were all wide open when i left earlier in the evening) and i always disprove of smoking infront of those unable to protest 060410 ... superleni i can't squeeze out the drops i need these are dried grass twigs their once wetness frustrates my hands 061110 what's it to you? who go blather from