i_put_a_lock_on_my_door shiva but you never come over anymore 011213 ... ClairE but you can't keep him out of his own house. 011214 ... sabbie dont tell me you put a lock on your door when you leave your window wide open lying to me i dont care about but dont lie to yourself like that. 020920 ... squint Something so small doesnt seem like it can save me. storms in different forms, cyclones of words, quaking screams, the thunder of a frightened silence. the silence is what i can't stand. one of these days someone is going to wind up dead or seriously injured. last night I figured who gives a fuck? they got themselves into it. so long as I'm taking care of the baby and shes fine..... protect the innocent and whatnot. but the lock trembles and sometimes I don't think it can weather this anger. 020920 ... *nat* several years ago, to block myself from the world, to create my own little haven. But now I open it to you, and i invite you to see my world, a place where few people, not even my closest friend, have entered previously. What do you think? 020920 ... mr.pete but now i can't get out. 021229 ... jane i tried as hard as i could to fulfill this task i made my own locks belts around the door handle you just busted right through them destroying any sense of self i might have tried to develop like picking flowers off a dying stem you destroyed that part of me that part where, years later, i'm going to be one of those people sitting around drinking tea or coffee and joking about how much therapy we all had to go through to get over what our fathers did to us and i'll be the one busting through 021230 ... identificationless i put a lock on my door to keep out the monsters, but that dosent stop them from getting into my head and tearing down in a second the confidence that i have been building up for years 040219 ... ee beep peep when i want to have a private conversation on the phone/jill off 040220 ... misstree and i've got some terribly wonderful walls but you came up and knocked and said "hi. i'd like to speak to you a moment about this wonderful sensate package i'm offering, and if you act now, you get the bonus of being broken." salesmen don't normally carry wares i haven't already collected a hundred of. come on in. looks like you've got quality stuff. 040220 ... june the lock was already here in the first place 040220 what's it to you? who go blather from