never_enough jezabel i pray to whatever fates hold sway not for your flesh, but for your mind, for your ability to grasp beyond the abyss of unspeakable loneliness to caress me in my passionate sorrows. 030820 ... birdmad However much i push it down It's never enough However much i push it around It's never enough However much i make it out It's never enough Never enough However much i do....... However big i ever feel It's never enough Whatever i do to make it real It's never enough In any way i try to speak Never enough Never enough However much i try to speak It's never enough However much i'm falling down It's never enough However much i'm falling out It's...never...enough Whatever smile i smile the most Never enough Never enough However i smile i smile the most So let me hold it up just one more go Holding it over just once more One more time to fill it up One more time to kill Whatever i do it's never enough It's never enough! However much i push it down It's never enough However much i push it around It's never enough However much i make it out It's never enough However much i do Never enough Never enough However much i'm falling down Never enough However much i'm falling out Never, never enough! Whatever smile i smile the most Never enough However i smile i smile the most So let me hold it up just one more go Holding it over just once more One more time to fill it up One more time to kill Whatever i do it's never enough Never enough! So let me hold it up just one more go Holding it over just once more One more time to fill it up One more time to kill Whatever i do it's never enough It's never enough It's never enough It's never enough It's never enough It's never, it's never enough (the_cure) 030820 ... mj i would kill to hear this song right now. 030820 ... Spare Change It was so damn hot, lethargic heat that suffocates you. She reached out one last time and put her hand on his shoulder. An offering Let me help Let me make you happy Let me do something He closed his eyes, they felt so dry. They were burning out of his skull. He watched the colors dance small smears of sunlight in purple and yellow. Then turning off the thoughts that tumbled through his head, he shrugged her hand off of his shoulder and stood facing away. Walk away Don't look at her Ignore everything Just GO!!! NOW!!! And he walked away. Slowly, one foot at a time. The way you walk when you're thinking, or you just woke up. She looked at her hand lying on the bench where it had fallen. She watched him walk away, knowing there would be no goodbye. She watched him stop his head down and she knew what he was thinking. She closed her eyes. It would never be enough. 030820 ... jezabel i need a step beyond, a scarlet smear, a scream that tears itself free. i need something new, something more than ever before, even while i scrabble for subsistence. i will slowly starve, a feast before me, but denied my ambrosia. 031231 ... misstree if i could just reach through the screen, feel the warmth of you just for a moment... if i weren't always waiting for lovehated chime telling me i've won another taste of your attention... if i had your eyes to look into like gypsie's crystals, all i would need is a glimpse to carry with me... if or if or if, it would be enough. what is it when it isn't? 060529 ... hsg ambition money people resources space talent time 061023 what's it to you? who go blather from