kill_the_me_in_me
lovely attraction you don't have to keep me here
i can just erase this all.
the 'me' is no longer who i want to be.
not anymore.
lets just start over and pretend life never happened.
i've realized that i forgot to live
i have been stirring this soup,
adding the ingrediants. . .for so many years
and it all amounts to nothing,
except possibly a pleasant scent.
but without the life and zest and effort
i am nothing more than hours wasted
and tasteless water.
if only i could find a place to dispose of all of this. but it seems i will just have to do my best to spice things.
there is no point in wasting any more years. . .

the easy road is always so attractive. 		030722
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drstrangelove reinvent yourself
live
love
and live again
do it now
live 		030723
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not sixteen because she assumes people it would make the world a whole lot happier.

Obviously I love myself too much to do it on my own. My dad has a shotgun, if anyone would like to help me out.


will jump on her for being this way. 		030723
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ass u me i'd like to jump on you for other reasons 030723
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deathtowalri i'll help you as long as i can use the gun first 030723
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ashmanzhou kill what makes thee inside thee
making souless selves alive
to fight your eternity and flee
to hell i tell myself to breathe
but choke i make the promise to be
but broke it and now i endlessly
try to see what isnt inside me
and hate it i strive to break
free of the hated pain the cold the dark
and find a place to confide inside
the depth and warmth of us but i know
youre gone and dead and now
theres nothing i wish to end but me
i dont see myself in the mirror and weep
i lie and dream and plead for sleep
for rest to help the hell dissolve
away but it stays and lays awake
as i do it breathes hate to make
me lose my touch with myself and me
i only wish to be free from me
and i seek only to kill the me in me 		030723
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. . 030724
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ferret yummy! 030724
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no reason i've never heard it said better 030930
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grendel i try to rip_it_out but it's rooted in every cell like metastatic cancer 030930
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nomatter
I'm all alone, what could be better? 		030930
what's it to you?
who go 		blather
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