im_on_the_outside_of_love pritheemydear must be a different view to be a me with a you 030205 ... whitechocolatewalrus love, it's a tight circle i don't think i have the strength to break the bonds of achievement i may as well lay here on the outside and go to sleep. 031227 ... . yes I am I am indeed 050103 ... no reason and i so wish you were too 050103 ... unhinged i watched from the backseat as he held her hand on the long trip home too busy to notice that i was laying in the backseat crying me and him have an understanding of what i'm not sure while i practiced my perfected art of crying without a single sound do you know how long i've stood alone a perfect friend a quiet phone empty hands always grasping i want to cry so hard i can't stand up dig a hole to crawl up in where no one can find me the old cat lady at 30 i've been on the outside for so long i'd rather be empty than salvage your last little crumbs conflicted restricted fractured you wouldn't know how long i've stood alone because you never ask and i won't tell strangely comfortable standing here on the outside alone after all these years 050809 ... unhinged approaching 30 on the inside of love the closest i am to the old cat lady the three of us together who would've known? to_tony photographic_memory 110926 ... In_Bloom Trying to figure a way to get back in, more Trying to figure if there's anything left there enough to build on or if I should burn it all down. Fire cleans up tainted efforts pretty well. 110928 ... Traveller That was very astute In_Bloom, I know who you are.... Do I know who I am??? .. Some of the time it can curse me, other times a release. I love the moniker that delves into the darkness. I can but laugh when the notion takes me. . 111002 ... grendel I lack the human_credentials to be anywhere else. some fundamental dearth of appropriate and functional personhood being disposed toward periods of villainy, greed and cowardice, I suppose it's not unwarranted that it should be so... gradually it is becoming easier to accept, but it's an ugly truth to have to face 111003 ... In_Bloom I watched a fat fuzzy creature one day as it bounced from bloom to bloom, it's delicate feet clumping with gold. It sputtered and revved yet, gathering, sharing and sometimes so unsteady as if it had gotten greedy and taken on too much to carry. As I got closer to scoop it up, zoom- it was off, little body motor gunning to tell me it was delighting in just being. 111023 what's it to you? who go blather from