i_miss_him emawin he was gone before i could ever say goodbye. i guess i wouldn't have done it well give the chance anyway. But if i just could have said 3 words one last time... PenguinRage : em i have to confess PenguinRage : i will probably always like you PenguinRage : the exeption... emawin13 : ? PenguinRage : if some how i loose all my memory short and long emawin13 : i dont understand PenguinRage : which part emawin13 : the memory part PenguinRage : just ignore that it only make sence to say in my mind PenguinRage : ok sleep time PenguinRage : half an hour should do the trick PenguinRage : good bye em emawin13 : i dont understand how you could possibly like me, since ive been such a bitch to you PenguinRage : ok i'll answer that and then im going PenguinRage : its simple i trust you and your beutiful PenguinRage signed off at 3:40:08 AM he thinks that he's going to die. he wanted those to be his last words to me, because that how he wanted me to remember him. i never even realized how much he loves me. no matter what i did, he never stopped loving me. 011018 ... unhinged i find myself missing him these days knowing he's so far away can't hear him laugh can't have him hold me can't ever give him the kiss i was keeping inside my heart just for him too far away wish he could hold me up again just once 011019 ... linsey I hope you meet someone just like me so I know how much you'll be appreciated. 011023 ... dgenerated I hope you meet someone just like me so I know how much you'll be appreciated. 011023 ... psychobabe i miss him, i miss all of him. His voice how it always made me comfortable and assured i was safe. His touch that was so gentle and light that i knew he'd never hurt me. His smile that always made me know he was happy with "us". God i just miss the way he held me in his arms, cuddleing, hopeing that it would never end and i'd never have to say goodbye...*wipes away tears* i miss him. I just hope he misses me too... 011027 ... nanny i had a friend, and he had problems. he was very depressed and had self-worth issues. everyone said that he was annoying and irritating because he was so pessamistic. but i still befriended him. i went away for a while. and when i came back he was gone. it seems he just disappeared and no one seemed to notice that he wasn't around anymore. noone knows where he went, or why he left, or even if he really did leave. all i know is i had a friend, and he had problems. and now he's gone, and i_miss_him. 020520 what's it to you? who go blather from