i_can't_do_this
ClairE
You
ruined
me
.
Part
of
me
is
sorry
.
Goodbye
.
020530
...
unhinged
i
always
wished
you'd
come
back
,
but
if
it
hurts
you
this
much
you
should
go
.
.....
i
can't
pretend
that
i
care
.
the
only
way
i
care
is
in
this
bitter
sardonic
'
i
don't
even
know
why
i
bother
cause
she
doesn't
give
a
fuck'
kind
of
way
and
that's
no
way
to
have
even
for
'
friends
.'
maybe
it's
better
that
i
don't
make
it
at
all
.
and
then
you
are
going
to
be
like
'
well
i
could
have
picked
you
up'
and
blah
blah
blah
but
i
don't
think
i
could
be
in
that
confined
of
a
space
with
you
for
that
long
.
sometimes
i
still
get
that
overwhelming
urge
to
choke
you
.
020530
...
bethany
because
i
go
outside
and
she
turns
on
her
light
and
asks
out
the
window
what
i'm
doing
outside
so
i
shove
the
blunt
down
and
realise
that
i
just
can't
do
this
tonight
020530
...
reitoei
why
not
?
020530
...
this
do
me
if
ya
really
wanna
020530
...
someonedome
ill
do
u
. [
btw
im
homeless
jobless
but
disease
free
] avg
looks
and
stuff
.
sorry
no
phone
#
020531
...
onemorebumpintheroad
went
to
planned
parenthood
today
.
they
confirmed
that
,
yes
,
i
am
indeed
pregnant
.
no
shit
.
they
gave
me
a
list
of
abortion
clinics
which
i
am
at
the
moment
staring
at
.
i
don't
want
to
do
this
.
can't
.
i
keep
thinking
about
all
the
easy
ways
to
end
it
,
but
then
i
suppose
i
might
as
well
get
this
over
with
and
at
least
try
to
live
with
myself
.
i'll
save
suicide
for
a
last
option
.
i'm
stronger
than
that
,
i
think
.
i
just
don't
know
anymore
.
i
can't
fucking
do
this
.
i'm
already
aching
for
this
soul
that
i'm
about
to
destroy
.
i
have
no
choice
.
life
is
just
a
void
.
020531
...
plumbrook
i
have
to
go
have
fun
with
friends
.
i
can't
do
this
i
have
to
sleep
in
.
i
can't
do
this
i
have
to
eat
cow
intestines.
i
can't
do
this
i
have
to
use
a
dollar
bill
as
toilet
paper
.
i
can't
do
this
i
have
to
buy
two
new
tires.
i
can't
do
this
i
have
to
hide
the
old
lady's
remains
.
i
can't
do
this
i
have
to
turn
off
the
refrigerator
light
in
her
brain
.
i
can't
do
this
if
there
were
just
some
dr. suess-esque
climax
here
,
i
could
feel
better
.
oh
well
,
i
guess
i
can't
do
that
either
.
what's
the
use
in
talking
about
how
bad
the
rest
of
life
really
is
when
you
can't
quite
force
out
of
it
every
last
hope
it
says
it
doesn't
have
the
instant
you
fall
for
it
?
030301
...
h oo ps
I
fall
.
060328
...
three words
breaking_new
i_can't_do_this
coward
060930
what's it to you?
who
go
blather
from
