clean_slate kookaburra is just plain weird today i think that i would like to erase all of my thoughts, experiences, feelings etc for one day. Then I would send myself through other people's lives, their experiences, and compare how i turned out each time. and then i would send myself back through my own life, butt this time i would know exactly what to do, and exactly what not to say. i'd just like to know if it would change my life as much i seem to think that it would. 040904 ... kook in a clam hm, 'butt this time'? ... i hate my friggin keyboard 040904 ... czmember the memories of chalk dust would still be there. 040904 ... awed cpg we posted at the same time! 040904 ... witchesrtequiem Damn Gt ...Tabula Rosa..... 040905 ... suicidalchinadoll not directed at any of the above posts... at the thought of a clean slate.. *just laughs* 040905 ... cpgurrl k then.... 040905 ... minnesota_chris it's hard when you become a grownup, but you still don't quite know how to talk, how to interact with people so that they treat you nicely. 040905 ... mourninglight rain pounding down the mountainface. one of slate very very clean slate 040916 ... fridays sex SEX sex i wanna fuck you like an animal fucky Fuck fuck fucking sucking crawl to that sup-a natural dick baby 040916 ... the mourning death_is_change_death_is_still_sad 040916 ... Syrope i hurt when people tell me things and then don't mean them. like when they decide to tell me things, not when i asked them for a stance or i guided them to say it. so when it's /their/ idea, and /their/ decision to tell me, it hurts when they don't follow through. but more than that it makes me sad for them, like a sort of disgusted pity. and then i start thinking things like, if they can't do that, then what about all the other stuff they've said. and when they won't even acknowledge their failure, i just start thinking that i shouldn't waste my time with delusional people. that negative energy is really bad for me. it's like listening to someone complain they have no friends. well, right, because no one wants to be friends with someone who complains to people about not having friends. and that sounds hypocritical, but i at least put up a face to strangers so i can have as many acquaintances as i want. but i don't choose to make many of them friends. who wants to be friends with someone who's sad all the time? apparently my friends don't mind it, and i don't get it. i just don't think it's fair to tell me you're going to do something that seems all like a favor to me, that i never asked for, so i think you're just self-motivated or something, and then to not do it, to not notice you're not doing it, and to not realize that it might have consequences. i'm so fucked up by everyday living that i don't think most of my own points are valid. that's just funny. 040917 ... oren Starting_over. 100608 ... lostgirl breathe easy baggage discarded fresh start new beginning its_all_the_way_good 100609 what's it to you? who go blather from