self_sacrifice unhinged comes in two forms 1) the_fundamental_interconnectedness_of_all_beings cultivating emptiness AND equanimity cultivate_compassion to abandon your self importance; to let go of the ego but the word sacrifice always felt like some kind of torture to me; like pieces were being violently cut out or pulled away. like things were dying. that instead of expanding conciousness, it is shrunken by the act of sacrficing, even if it is giving up bad parts, things. like the way i sacrificed who i really was to pay the cost of being accepted by others. because humans, as social animals, give_up all kinds of things for that acceptance. the pieces i cut and pulled out of myself because i thought i wasn't good enough, bad, degenerate, unclean. that the element of faith was missing from my sacrifice, a modern day nonreligion. to mold my self so that no one could dislike me, an unattainable impossibility that could only affirm that i wasn't good enough. this weird cyclical hate directed inward in trying to attempt this all_encompassing love directed outwards. i was deluded. cut_that_cord i was painfully deluded 070414 ... PRICE i will hide in the TANK and i will waer a bright pink T-shirt. not because i am a coward but because i want to have a party not kill someone ! 070415 what's it to you? who go blather from