equanimity . fourteen weeks of basic training have clarified my understanding of the meanings thus pertaining 090510 ... unhinged borders_of_compassion 140527 ... unhinged you tell me you want to die silence envelops me (i know that feeling; the howling heart, the unbearable pain, the need for cessation) i cannot tell you it will get better cancer prison these things are the worst this world has to offer impermanence is cold_comfort in the face of that much suffering when i look into the future what i see for you is just bleak dank dismal when you tell me you want to die silence envelops me you never learned to cope without drugs a heroin_doll without a playmate immaturity and instant gratification MAKE IT GO AWAY you can run but_eventually all_of_these_things will catch up with you you can make_better_choices you can learn to sit with the pain or you can end it all not my choice to make and the depressive part of me can't help but agree after all these years and all the threats the cycle, the wheel of poverty, addiction, prison that the end for you would at least bring relief 171217 what's it to you? who go blather from