miserable_sinking_feeling ClairE I wish I understood my mother better. I wish I could love my father without reserve. I wish my brother paid any attention to me. I wish they would at least answer my letters. It's hard to know you're not needed. 031110 ... ClairE This one's different. It's in my stomach. I don't know what you want from me. 031111 ... ferret the kind you have when you get kicked in the balls 031111 ... pipedream goddamn, i broke it again... :S sheaat! and it wasn't mine either! 031112 ... shroud looking so cowardly, at your face how can i be so scared of your eyes i am not this person you see i could throw it off, in an eyeblink and so close we would dance, again with eyes, shut, and fingers, open and be lost, in a pool of sweet agony but never again, though i cry to you never, and i know, you are gone 031113 ... lucky . 040806 ... TK hello old friend. 040807 ... suicidalchinadoll I think you have to remember.. how much of this was yours to begin with you weren't smiles and giggles when it began either.. not to come across as bitter.. but you may be passing more than you think. 040902 ... Syrope I got a friend there, she says "hey, any time." unless that offer's expired, i have been less than frequent. she's under no obligation to indulge every whim and i'm so ungrateful, i take, she gives & forgives. and i keep forgetting it. and each morning she wakes with a dream to describe, something lovely that bloomed from her beautiful mind. I said "I'll trade you one for two nightmares of mine. i have some where i die. I have some where we all die." 050626 ... nomme) i know what i must do 050626 ... *Amy* and it brings insomnia.....again 050627 ... unhinged when_he_laughed you_killed_it and i got that miserable sinking feeling the one i get when i always eventually realize that i'll always only be the 'friend' 050627 ... . oh this one? yeah... 050627 ... eighteen stop hanging up so early. 050628 ... Light Sunday night, 23:59... tick tick tick tick 080709 ... In_Bloom Trying not to think about how much they're enjoying kissing someone else 081022 what's it to you? who go blather from