i_dont_want_to_get_over_you Harlequin I don't want to get over you. I guess I could take a sleeping pill and sleep at will and not have to go through what I go through. I guess I should take Prozac, right, and just smile all night at somebody new, somebody not too bright but sweet and kind who would try to get you off my mind. I could leave this agony behind which is just what I'd do if I wanted to, but I don't want to get over you cause I don't want to get over love. I could listen to my therapist, pretend you don't exist and not have to dream of what I dream of; I could listen to all my friends and go out again and pretend it's enough, or I could make a career of being blue; I could dress in black and read Camus, smoke clove cigarettes and drink vermouth like I was 17 that would be a scream but I don't want to get over you. -Magnetic Fields 060315 ... unhinged but i'm thinking it's for the best to give my heart a rest from the ambiguous wordless_conversations and old gory past empty silence quiet phones disappear into the standard i hold them up to you negative photographs held up to the light black what should have been white turning them all away restless i don't want to get over you but it's probably for the best to give my heart something else to say keep on old friend we'll both get there in the end separate_but_whole 060315 ... unhinged i picked up a shift in mens shirts and ties yesterday. a young asian guy came through browsing the shirts. the chemical_happiness of you drifted back to my imagination but added: i would watch you walk back to the bedroom, the muscles in your thighs flexing under skin as you walked. my gaze unnerved you. you turned your back to me as if i couldn't see you as you pulled your slacks up over your perfect ass. a blue starched dry_cleaned button down shirt, the way you wiggled your arms into the shirt. 'what?' you fixed your eyes somewhere above my head. 'nothing' i kept my eyes to myself and let you dress in peace. 150401 ... unhinged (i spend more time thinking of my career now. im_over_it but my minds eye still slides over your ass in the brandy briefs you wore as you were absorbed in the details of grooming so my staring didnt unsettle you. having you to share my life with was hard to get over) 150513 ... unhinged taipei_helix 160208 what's it to you? who go blather from