somnambulism some headless sleeper I might as well be a fictional person pretending to write about myself. Not really looking, not really waking, not really staying awake. I guess I'm mistaken, the endlessly thrilling of words has worn me down. So heading for slumber I suddenly recognize a structure I've seen before: the surfer's lament! 010521 ... court appointed grendel the man stabbed his wife repeatedly and dragged her to the pool to finish her off the sleepwalk defense failed 010522 ... sabbie ok, the boy's in bed already, and has been for hours. i gotta get up at 6:30 to go to work, its 3 am yet im still here, surrounded by computer guts, nick cave and the images in my head. i cant go to bed, yet my brain feels like it's already asleep. is this my own personal somnambulistic prision? i had a friend who was an insomnaic once. it sounds all grand and angsty and cool, but she had huge black rings around her eyes and was so tired her hands shook constantly. it wasnt very romantic, really. 010523 ... Preposterous_Ugly Because it was all severely screwed up. You were going like, "Oh hey you," and other idiotic references one would attempt to ignore but you kept hammering on. You wouldn't stop. My losses would have been cut long ago. But seriously most of you people are a bunch of lying two faced back stabbing assholes aren't you? Do you really think I would WANT to be harassed with you fucking daunting crap? Who fucking cares is right, and let me tell you this, you can't stand it because you know I'm not WRONG. You had NO right to do it. So screw you, I am the innocent, and I hope one day you will find your fucking God staring you in the face attempting to justify YOUR actions. I am free. Free of you people and if something is so played out quit watching it. Duh, how stupid can you really be? But then I'm asking people who are attempting to blackmail me with stuff I've done that would never bother me. Yeah, so we fucked in the car, so. OOoohh eee that is so bad. FUCK YOU, MAN! 040202 ... sd A SONGALONGADONGABONGA TO ALLABALLABALLABALL THOSEDFIBIGUYAKANANANANA GAAGGAGA IF YOU WANT PUUMISH U WANT U KOMOONINGIGI U ASSASSSUUUU JINGAHANGIDI AMANIMONOLOMITH HAMMAMADAMAKARAMITH TUYUMUDUMULUMUNUTH DIMINIMINIMITH! 101116 ... fghio fghio 101116 what's it to you? who go blather from