moments_of_intersection
unhinged we used to spend every waking spare moment of our lives together; now i can barely stand to work with you.

discarded

you haven't answered or returned my phone calls for months, so i don't even bother anymore.

abandoned

i ask you for help and you think i'm just trying to get in your pants. (i really just want back in your heart...if i was ever in there to begin with)

misunderstood

i am out picking up some carry out, browsing the gifts and see a scorpion made out of tin cans. i contemplate buying it for your new studio. i even pick it up to check the price ($8). i could part with $8 for you. 'no, he doesn't deserve gifts from you' i have to remind myself. i put it back. but i am still thinking of going back and getting it for you anyways.

reanimated

for the first time since you took off my clothes, i sleep at your place. what used to be a nightly occurence is now constrained , refracted in bright shiny just_a_kiss es , nakedness. you let me sleep in the bed, but turn your back to me petulant. because i ran. because the day after it happened, you acted like nothing happened. there was no discussion. you said nothing and i can't start conversations like that. there's a heart_pang ; my heart feels like it's going to stop. you said nothing. three days later i met someone that seemed interested in me. i dated him for awhile. he tried to hold my hand and i would pull away. he told me i was beautiful and i would pull away. looking into my eyes got him off but i wanted to look away. because the only reason i was with him was because i was running away from you. the next morning we woke up and went for food and you said 'it's just like it used to be' but it wasn't. it can never be 'just like it used to be'

eliminated
but not
excised 		090220
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unhinged are going to be much less now and i think i'm okay with that. wait; i am okay with that. 090316
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unhinged now that you are back in the country
i text you

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out of nowhere
you tell me you miss me
and want me to come to new York

your wife
comes to mind as a
reason
to stay on the
other side of the continent

i send you more pics 		180113
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unhinged are fewer and farther between the more i isolate myself; sometimes i am lonely. mostly, i am relieved. 180705
what's it to you?
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