a_cry_for_help spiffy no one seems to ever hear mine. 040703 ... spiffy ...or maybe just no one cares. 040703 ... :) Where_have_all_the_WMD_in_iraq_gone? 040704 ... . shariyat_ki_sugmad 040704 ... . shariyat_ki_sugmad 040704 ... meolme Ask real people in the real world who you know and trust for help, you will find that they will often at least try to help you. 040704 ... Deomis You cry out Begging for a guide But all you feel Is the dark void around yourself A world of apathy Cold glances And hardened tears 040704 ... kookaburra my fingers swelling up after i cracked them all week. save us from arthritis! they are saying. ha! im gonna get arthritis in every single joint of my body from track and ballet. why should my knuckles get special treatment? 040705 ... Toxic_Kisses You say I don’t hear you that I'm not listening but that’s untrue the real problem is that I just don’t know what to say I don’t know what to do I want to make things all better I want to make you all better To make you smile and laugh again to see your eyes twinkle in delight and enjoy the simply being alive ~~ !~BUT I JUST DONT KNOW HOW TO~! ~~ instead of wishing for death bc it’s the only alternative option you see ...if olny I had the right words if only I could do just the right thing... 040705 ... metamantrg All you can do is just go forward and not backup get you prioritys right if it's your calling 040712 ... alice you can't determine if it is your calling when you have 1000 distractions thrown in your path 040723 ... metamantrg you can if you alow it I have with all the thousands of things trown at me whats most important to you 040830 ... next to Nobody tk: tears well. those words are too familiar, the helpless look in my love's eyes. i try to tell him not to worry. it's useless; i can only dodge his questions so much. i promised him i would call a crisis line before i did anything, and that i would admit myself if it got any worse. there's been no progress. i feel like i keep getting crazier and crazier. i called a few friends before crisis line, people i knew would care, that could talk me back to some semblance of temporary sanity. no one was home. i used to think cries for help were pussy bullshit, that it meant you were weak. naw. it's that you're strong; the masked pleas are sometimes the only signs you can send out. i don't want to die. i want to get better. but that option is damnably slow in presenting itself, and in the meantime, "it looks like i'm up shit creek again." 040831 ... three words a_cry_for_help pictures_of_me ran 060124 what's it to you? who go blather from