the_shadows_of_my_mind Deomis I hear the muted whispers See the darkened faces turn As this fire slowly burns Consuming all my thoughts I sit and stare with vacant eyes I dare not to deny their lies So I withdraw into my mind And hide among the shadows 040802 ... oldephebe oh yes let us burn away the truth in this...the courtroom is a crucible the loveless judgement of our family and friends, just pour it all out on the pyre then, if that is what this- the dead body of our affections put a sail on its' coffin and set it to sea, let it roam the world's thoroughfares in search of the thing that is dead in our hearts - YOUR HEARTS! not mine, i'm still silly enough to care someone said "In our secrets lie our sickness" so next time i'll whisper it and hold it up to thier eyes and take no more breaths of the smoky blistered air and maybe i'm just alittle light headed you know, because of the hunger and maybe i'm just etching my palsied souls frustrations phantom kisses shadowed striations a shadow flailing at an empty wall how long will this splinter stay in my soul how long can we drink from this fountain before we all become diseased? ... 040803 ... kookaburra is delusional are getting pretty crowded with all of those little details i'd rather not think about anymore. and it doesnt seem to matter much that they are in the shadows, daily a little flashlight lights them up in gory glory i cant seem to let these memories go 040804 ... from now on there is a whole play going on 041108 ... OOps... "Blind Spot" 041108 ... e.g. 4000 041108 ... nom the meadows of my shine 060210 ... worthless Without light, there cannot be shadow. If only I could find the fucking light. 160507 ... mymindsuchasweething Usually calm... but your light provoked 20 years of rage, that comes out through salted silent tears, they'd freeze on fire if they were really made of feelings... distilled memory. 210217 ... nn , 210219 ... ego hom who is distilling? I don't need to distill my shadows suffice 210220 what's it to you? who go blather from