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AVAN i want you to know that you are graceful, as intricate and wondrous as an ivory bone orchid, and the color of your soul soars like a beethovan string concerto i mean sure plumbinh the purple infinities and ruminating upon the ghost of his trajedian quixotic vison branded deep into his spirits template and yet and yet it holds a kind of emotional current that compelled lenny bernstien to infuse the performances of his favorite composers works - i mena he channeled the zietgiest of that guy and challenged technicians, peerless technicians of string and bow to infuse the score of thier art with thier entire being..with this consuming quixotic fire but i don't think all of them got that and i know how that can be..the sense of frustration when you try to impart to folks that have mastered the technique but do not know nor care to imagine the soul of the composer - crestfallen - yeah - anyway what you choose to behold about yourself becomes your radiance - and it can pierce the most impenetrable Night and you do...you do dance upon the suface of it - they see you - so something about about the color of a soul, the loudness of it triple forte or something that can rekindle a fire from green wood - don't get it twisted, i'm talking about young trees, new growth forests wearing the armor of shadows trying to quiet and wear the lions empty roar within thier wouls, but they see you, if they're WORTH it they will see your midnight dance.
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i'm sure i'll hear from you again
good luck
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thorn i want you to know how much you mean to me, and how much i wish i could tell you that.

and that you are beautiful, even if you don't believe it.

and you're bright shiny shimmery joyfully amazing. being around you makes me happy. and i wish we talked more. 		051215
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. I don't think you appreciated it at all. Infact, i think you where glad to be rid of me. The only reason you whatched how you treated me was because I was right there infront of you, angry and obviously being used for no reason other than to make a tough job shorter. You didn't need me. You could have done all that yourself. Now that you've got everything you can get out of me your happy to forget me except for that nag in the back of your mind. That sniveling resentment that your psyche spawned because you know you did me wrong and I didn't deserve it and somehow thats my fault.


But thats okay. You'll always have my love, and unlike you I mean it when i say it, but now you have my pity, too.

And don't call asking for anything...at this point any more help I gave you would hurt you more than help. 		051216
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andru235 give or take this or that, dotted one, what you have written is an eloquent and succinct summation of the sentiments uranium-235 harbors towards the nuclear societies that "refine" and fission (or, so were it - and albeit less approximately - fusion) it. 051216
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AVAN If (...)

It's OK.
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oh uh yeah...what's up andru.
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