what_am_i_now
sabbie "clinically insane?"

"no, little house on the pairie"

young_ones rock my world.
020327
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mahayana light, air, colour
you can look but you can no longer touch
light, air, colour
you can breathe but you can not taste me
light, air, colour
you can paint but you can not wear me
light, air, colour

you can be touched but not by me
020413
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kerry itching (literally)

longing

sitting

sighing

typing

thinking and pondering

{**and** oh, geez... imagining kissing your lips which surely taste of salt, a bubblegum tongue, maybe you could lick all my blood away....}
020413
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kill rhythm i am alone 020414
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Softly spoken Well? 020414
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kill rhythm i am alone in my defeat 020414
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tiny dot star pure,pure light
atoms for epicureans
full bellied moons and
stars split in two
020414
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god you are another crotch-rocket jockey 020620
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Whitechocolatewalrus I am a parasite swimming in the area between complete dependence and eventual separation. 031204
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misstree i need to backtrack
keep my hand on the left wall
whisk myself back to
the last missed turn,
find the crannies i've overlooked,
maybe even
figure out where
i shed all those pieces
and compare them
to the replacement parts.
031205
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unhinged for a few months it all disappeared
i was loved
useful
happy
(or happier)
but he turned out the same
and my skin itches again
and i hate breathing
i am so tired
031205
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x a genuine bastard 031206
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notme wishing i was alive 031206
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Witchesrequiem Tired of sleeping awake...
and being awake while i sleep.
031206
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fairbecca sober 031206
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somebody ANGRY hurt sad lonely depressed not rich not

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031206
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Eowithien You could, or I mean, *I* could, say, "Just a silly little girl," but I guess that wouldn't be exactly true.

I don't know what I am really and I will either never find out or it will be a long time until that moment. I hope I'm a lot of things that won't let me down, that I can be okay with. Some of them I've realized that hard way and it hurts. Though everything does if you think about it too much, like I always do.



Someday I will say that phrase as I jump from behind the curtain that is my life, smiling and satisfied. At long last.
040309
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