in_retrospect
shower singer
what
a
wise
and
boring
place
to
be
040702
...
birdmad
my
head
twisted
backwards
like
the
reflective
sinners
in
one
of
the
circles
of
the
Inferno
do
i
ever
move
in
straight
lines
or
is
the
circle
i
wear
my
path
into
so
expansive
as
to
be
rendered imperceptable
by
the
curvature
of
the
earth
?
040702
...
jane
on_last_night
041104
...
jane
i
keep
wishing
i
had
somehow
documented
the
beginning
.
instead
,
there
are
just
two
small
maybe's
.
i
was
so
preoccupied
with
a
door
closing
that
i
overlooked
the
other
opening
.
and
now
-
now
that
i
know
how
much
that
opening
would
affect
me
,
my
life
-
it
kills
me
inside
to
think
i
didn't
notice
at
the
time
.
and
part
of
me
blames
my
memory
-
can
somebody
please
tell
me
when
i
started
losing
these
pieces
of
grey_matter?
my
greatest
childhood
fear
realized
...
it
has
never
ceased
to
be
an
area
of
frustration
for
me
.
wishing
i
had
paid
better
attention
,
not
gotten
so
drunk
,
just
not
been
so
flighty
in
general
.
wondering
if
any
of
those
would
have
made
a
difference
.
i
was
only
allowed
a
short
period
of
time
when
my
actions
didn't
affect
another
person
-
maybe
that
accounts
for
my
sweeping
carelessness
.
and
to
be
fair
-
i
DESERVED
that
period
.
i
earned
it
.
after
so
long
bending
over
backwards
,
it
was
my
time
to
be
flighty
and
offensive
and
say
fuck
-all.
but
it
doesn't
help
this
feeling
,
like
i
missed
out
on
recording
something
brilliant
.
(
he
says
he
remembers
everything
...)
091103
...
unhinged
i
remember
every
detail
(
photographic_memory
)
and
get
i
seem
to
end
up
with
people
who
are
quick
to
forget
.
it's
the
sagitarrius
in
you
.
wanting
a
little
of
everything
, flighty, prone
to
excess
.
some
of
my
best
friends
right
now
are
also
sags.
i
think
detail
oriented
people
need
people
who
can
throw
caution
to
the
wind
and
not
plan
every
damn
minute
.
cause
sometimes
i
can't
see
the
forest
cause
i'm
too
busy
staring
at
the
leaves
on
one
tree
.
it
definitely
makes
for
interesting
collaboration
.
i
used
to
spend
too
much
of
my
time
analyzing
the
past
.
fuck_that_noise
i'm
trying
to
do
good
in
the
present
so
i
don't
have
to
worry
about
the
past
or
the
future
.
091103
what's it to you?
who
go
blather
from
