it_should_be Strideo because it'd_be_better if_it_was. ... 101018 ... Iren3_adler The best thing. The silence, I mean, Because it's happening for you. Not a day goes by when I don't check. When I don't think of you. But this is the best thing I could give you. I believe that wholeheartedly. 151010 ... Risen It isn't for me, though. It is for you. Because you made your choice, and you're happy with it, and you don't need to have any reminders of your past mistakes. 151010 ... Risen I read this again today. Outside of the feelings I had at the time. With the wealth of new perspective I have now... I know this to be true. That silence was the only gift you could give. You could not give me you, you could not give me hope, you wanted me to be free. You knew those things could only come from silence. That no matter how much anyone might have tried, there was no way for there to be anything but pain for us. No way to go to Wales. That Rudolf and Flavia should have let go. That there was only one way to make it right. That there was only one option. Silence. It was the right decision. It was a wise and selfless decision, and I should not have been so ungrateful. It was the moral thing to do. It was noble. Thank you for it. And while circumstances dictate that it did not have the intended outcome, it probably would have if said circumstances had not diverged so spectacularly from the norm or any logical predicted projection. It was the equivalent of having a drone strike take out a stadium before someone scored a goal. Not a tactical outcome anyone could have predicted. ... but now I'm rambling. My point was that distance and time are great healers, and now I understand. And I couldn't let that petulant thing be the last response. 170505 ... . . 170505 ... Iren3_adler I just saw your response to this. Thank you, for your acknowledgment. A year late on my part - my apologies, I had not looked back over my own personal posts for a while. I hope you are well, happy, and with no breaks! No agenda, as you decided I had before - I often envy your freedom to post here - I sometimes wish I had continued to always do the same - just know you are never far from my thoughts and how special you are. The third postsecret this week (30/05/18) led me here, to your latest post - So I just want to say - whoever it is that is saving you - I wish you so much happiness and love - you deserve it and so much more. Your friendship once meant the world to me. Thank you for everything. 180530 what's it to you? who go blather from