blatherhurtsmyhead mikejohnson Somebody said something, who is he? Where did she go? Is that him again? Is that her pretending to be him? Is that him pretending to be her pretending to be him? Is he saying what I think he's saying? How can he be if I'm not sure whether it's him or her pretending to be him? There is conversation. Can't help but feel apprehensive knowing that the person i'm talking to might not be who she claims to be at all. How could I have trusted him? Blather reminds me of being drunk. Everybody's coming and going. They seem to have the most profound things to say. I don't know who they are and what they said in the morning. is getting dizzy. 050123 ... mikejohnson But then, blather really is about the words, not the people behind them. will have to get used to that. 050124 ... .nom i think it's all about everything. 050124 ... .nom returning_to_sender 050124 ... sab lifehurtsmyheart 050124 ... mikejohnson Blather can also hurt your heart. is afraid of blather. 050209 ... dandy what's that thing that a first lady once said, no one can hurt you or threaten you without your giving consent? 050210 ... dandy it's a masochistic trip. pleasure and pain, intimacy and distance twisted into a knotted bundle thrown aloft at its apex weightless free zero gravity. plip. the words dangle from your ears. tumble end for end. the words have landed in your tu lips bed rotten or polyvinyl flaking husks to snatch out and toss? 050210 ... mikejohnson I feel like the giver. I keep showing my friends blather and they don't get it. but as i continue to link words from our msn conversations to blather, i can see them start to get it. not like i get it. but in the end perhaps it will hurt them too. i'm still glad to have been given. and therefore will continue to give. feels powerful ;) 050216 ... .nom blather hurts my bed was that already said? 050217 ... . IF YOU RECALL I TOLD YOU VERY SPECIFICALLY TO NOT JUST SHOW IT TO ANYONE 050217 ... mikejohnson "If you need to type things in capitals to express your rage... then get the fuck out, because you are ruining everything." - MAGICFOREST - 20041107 so calm urself and be patient with the new guy. . 050217 ... . IF YOU RECALL I TOLD YOU VERY SPECIFICALLY TO NOT JUST SHOW IT TO ANYONE 050217 ... mikejohnson wow period, or dot, or whoeveryouchoosetobethistimebecauseyouareafraidofyourself, you sure don't have a lot of faith in , or his friends. Ouch. 050217 ... mikejohnson california best_of_blather blathe_of_the_year whatsthepointinblather ____________________________ And now i figured out what hurts the most, (well it's not really hurting, tho i'm sure i don't know what that is, but it's something uncomfortable) about this place. putting my post at the top of the recent list and seeing if it might get replied to. five minutes? maybe twenty? one time i waited an hour before i had to go somewhere. Look at this conversation! Youknowwhenyourstandingaroundandtheresabigjokeandthensomebodysayssomethingretardedandtheresveryawkwardsilence? DOES NOT WANT TO MAKE THAT COMMENT! 050223 ... hineni And yet, here i am 050416 what's it to you? who go blather from