tormented_by_you spacecowboy How can you be so cold to me? How can you leave me tumbling in the dark after saying those words? after stealing my heart for the second time, after breaking my soul, after shattering my world? How can you be so insensitive? Is this just another game for you? Do you enjoy toying with my feelings? leaving me hungring for your every word till the late night hours, hoping that you would say something.. anything.. Even just a plain goodnight. You said you know how I feel, then why do you keep tormenting me like this? Dont you know what your words mean to me? how they keep me comfort at night and sane during the day? Do you know how I cherish that single sweet sound of your voice? Even if it was a whispered unclear sentence, I still hear it in my dreams when I hold you close to me. But apperently those are exactly that.. Just dreams.. Dreams of a fool. and I am such a fool.. Fool to allow these emotions to effect me so much, to allow you such control over my life. Fool for believing you were saying the truth and fool for thinking your relation to me would change. If you truly cared for me, you wouldnt act thisway. You would have tried to call me after 4 months, you would have asked me how I feel, how I was holding on, you would have shown me some kind of warmth. And yet, after all of this, I still cant hate you for what you cause me. I know I should, but I'll just be fooling myself. I am drawn to you like a moth to the flame and I know you'll keep hurting me, But there's nothing I can do. I hate myself for loving you so. 050629 ... akuma aoi train yourself not to love this person and they will lose the power to hurt you 050629 ... misnomer but how does one train oneself not to love? 050630 ... akuma aoi practice, patience and weighing your willingness to be further subjected to the hurt. when you arrive at the point where that person is of as little consequence to you as you to them, you have taught yourself to not love them if you let love collapse in on itself(and it is so very tempting) like a dying star, the resulting hate you'll feel, while it might keep you warm for awhile, is just as counterproductive as the love you might otherwise be wasting on them. strive for a sense of detachment 050630 ... unhinged glutton_for_punishment 190504 what's it to you? who go blather from