to_everyone_angry_with_me squint screws up...badly. 1) I never know how to approach you. I don't know how to play chess, and I can't act. anything i tell you seems pushed. Its like you're putting in enough effort for the both of us, so why try? When you let me know that you've discovered long ago how sticky I am with stupidity, I'll be satisfied. I'll be more comfortable than anything. And now I'm starting to beleive you. I still don't think I could ever hurt you, but I'm sorry for being less careful. 2) I hardly know you enough, I can't explain myself. Its not my perception of who you are, its not you, its not anything that has happened, its nothing! I meant absolutely nothing by my *foolish* actions, and I just want you to forgive me. I'm afraid that now I'm blocked. but I don't want to chase you. i think I'd just annoy you. 3)My silence is nothing new--for anyone. I don't know. Have I been myself lately? Thats the problem, i think. That i am by nature a quiet person, and now even in these online things I am slipping back inside myself. Its not fair to you. And I broke a promise and I hate myself for that. and if you've concluded that we just can't talk, then I guess we can't...I just wish we could. And I feel different, I think we can. I've just been crappy and I'm sorry I let it affect you. there is nothing wrong with you, trust me trust me trust me its ME not you. don't forget me forever 021006 ... star burn oh kitten, I wasn't even around last night, but I wouldn't block you. one thing I try very hard not to be is hypocritical. I was a little hurt, whether you believe it or not. And it has been weird and difficult but in the end I guess I caused it to be that way. I don't want it to be a big deal though. 021006 ... grr oh nevermind... apparently you did this to a lot of people... probably weren't even talking to me 021006 ... i know thats what everyone says right? 1)lycanthrope 2)daxle 3)nah...! 021006 ... nah....! jamie: i don't know if you feel this way, but i feel like there's just too much i have to say to you. perhaps i'm copping out by saying that maybe we just can't talk anymore. but bleh. i feel like we've been over this before. sometimes when i have too much to say to someone, i just opt to say nothing at all. usually it's more than that, though. in our case, i think the "more" is that we're too damn similar and both too invested in our own obsessions and so forth. these days it's like that with everyone i am know, really. how bleedingly pathetic. 021006 ... nah....! everyone i know* not everyone i am know stupid fucking typo shit asdhfkajdsfdfg 021006 ... jim_starks you can all go fuck yourselves 021007 ... stork daddy finally. 021007 ... freakizh don't cry. i like you all. even if you go and fuck yourselves. i like you. will you come home with me? 021007 ... magicforest I can't play chess either. What a dialogue, though. I was rapt. 031026 ... god welcome_to_the_machine 041003 what's it to you? who go blather from