there_must_be_something_i_need impatient virgin I slept through my math test today. I have math, Italian, and English beack to back, and I woke up 20 minutes before Italian and looked at my clock, and I wanted to punch myself in the face. This has been happening to me all week. I tried to cry. I wanted to. I really need[ed] release. But the tears wouldn't come, and I had to pull myself out of bed and get ready for a class that started in 20 minutes and was a 15 minute walk away. I was 5 minutes late. Oh well. In English my mind started to wonder towards self-hate, so while the class was discussing 'The Story of an Hour' I was thinking about what it would be like to slit my wrists open, just to watch the blood flow. Release. If_only_I_could_cry. 020202 ... grievance There must be something i need, because i'm here. 020202 ... silent storm Love Faith Honesty and Trust I have hope. That helps. 020204 ... meaningless associate another bottle and a fresh pack 020204 ... Mahayana there_must_be_something_i_need within when im looking for someone 2 fill those needs [i know whom i need] [but alas] [she does not need] [{me}] ¿[repeating patterns]? as if saying: aeiou lmnop aeiou [patterns are repeating] [[[what will yOu say now]]] 020205 ... daxle If she can fill this void, it will only be temporarily and never satifactorily. If you can fill this void, it's a relatively permanent fix. (super glue vs screws) 020205 ... fli focus........spelled right? Don't know, and don't care.......That is just it...nothing to focus on, no end of the rainbow, no rainbow.....no focus. Excitement, an inside tickling...that is what I need.. .You? 020205 ... cube Flip it around - there_must_be_something_i_can_give. Now, isn't that much more fun? ³ 020205 ... Mahayana The space of spin-1/2 operators has nice topological and algebraic structures [mathematical model for spin one-half doesnt say much for two out of four] 030814 ... . . 041218 ... anne-girl i just realised i was supposed to babysit 2 days ago... and forgot... for the second time too, i'm such an idiot and boys and school ... {augh} ... i'm so stupid 050504 what's it to you? who go blather from