stick_the_needle_in cruel and unusual birdmad hand_of_doom he deserved it, but yet they shouldn't have done it, it was too god for him the easy way out made a martyr of a coward he was unworthy of the poem he left to the warden an eternity in an oubliette would be more apt, with no other light than the glow of a television screen replaying te image of his handiwork looped until oblivion 010612 ... kinkazoid i could never poke myself with a needle i could never poke it through the skin. but i used to cut myself with razor blades all the time, thats strange, i think it would cause less pain to poke myself with a needle but i tried it one time and i could push it through the skin no matter how hard i pushed. 010612 ... jestification she started shaking... and declaring a time forgotten that i never even knew. how she felt and needed. how she feels and needs. how she was slave to the needle... and i can not relate... i can not tolerate a needle unless it's tainted with ink. and she started to shake... the idea of new ink... and i began to understand, it's not the needles, it's her brain. 011204 ... niki i just love to see the blood shoot into the little tube at the end...sometimes it freaks out the nurses 011204 ... She Breathe it in and breathe it out And pass it on, it's almost out We're so creative, so much more We're high above but on the floor It's not a habit, it's cool, I feel alive If you don't have it you're on the other side The deeper you stick it in your vein The deeper the thoughts, there's no more pain I'm in heaven, I'm a god I'm everywhere, I feel so hot It's not a habit, it's cool, I feel alive If you don't have it you're on the other side I'm not an addict (maybe that's a lie) It's over now, I'm cold, alone I'm just a person on my own Nothing means a thing to me (Nothing means a thing to me) It's not a habit, it's cool, I feel alive If you don't have it you're on the other side I'm not an addict (maybe that's a lie) Free me, leave me Watch me as I'm going down Free me, see me Look at me, I'm falling and I'm falling. It is not a habit, it is cool I feel alive I feel... It is not a habit, it is cool I feel alive It's not a habit, it's cool, I feel alive If you don't have it you're on the other side I'm not an addict (maybe that's a lie) I'm not an addict... (K's Choice, Not an Addict on Paradise in Me) 030421 ... celestias shadow i hurt myself today to see if i still feel i focused on the pain the only thing that's real the needle tears a hole the old familiar sting try to kill it all away but i remember ...everything... 030924 ... unhinged heroin_doll 220911 what's it to you? who go blather from