it_is_time_to_admit_to_myself_that
julien
I must step aside neatly,
Remove myself from the equation,
A variable, sequestered and shot.
I am powerless to help you, dear,
(Although seeing you consumed
By the demons you made guests
Is a wee tiny bit appealing)
I am forced to close my mouth:
There is nothing I can do.
Casually I am wondering if
Galileo didn't feel a small rush
Of dirty, insane glee that They,
Pitiful giants, unsuspecting villains
Only with pain would see the morbid truth
Locked inside the stars.
050801
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*Amy* that altough I try, if I don`t forget him, no other boy will be interested to me 050802
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blah-ze that backing away may be the best course for now, even though every piece of me wants to fight until i fall 050802
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andru235 that no one else on this planet will perhaps ever realize that sentience exists at atomic levels...

and also that my fellow Americans will continue to believe that dropping the bombs was necessary to end WWII without ever taking their lazy asses to a library and learning about the situation Japan found itself in on May 8th 1945, nor its repeated surrender offers before august 6th...
050806
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nim he really really isn't what I want and that if I continue to pretend he is that I'd be wasting precious time. 050806
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nim he really really isn't what I want and that if I continue to pretend he is that I'd be wasting precious time. 050806
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megan i'm really nuts
and need to calm the heck down

from now on
no more psycho megan

(of course, it is easy to say during the day)
050807
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Doar it's all in my head. and it's leaking out. 050808
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julien sometimes i really do miss how life used to be

how love used to be
050809
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unhinged im_on_the_outside_of_love because i like it there where i can complain cry and moan. i must like it there.


but then there are the times where i'm the invisible fat girl standing on the outside because i'm tired of my words being the only attractive thing, listening to myself babbling the shit falling out of my mouth just so i can be seen.

i'm quiet now
not a thing to say
050809
what's it to you?
who go
blather
from