are_ya_done elimeny who do you think you are? yes, yes, i confess my fantasies, and you assume you are the one to give them to me, to offer them up how you feel they should be... do not attempt to taunt me. i know how i am when i speak to you. because we both know you intimidate me. you require decisions, and i require foresight. and you may think im boring and that i cant walk the walk. but im just not like you. if you look at your past, can you see why i walk delicately? oh yes, im sure you would be an excellent lover, and you could taunt me, and hold your power over me like a carrot tied to a stick, but arent you the demanding one? you assume that after one conversation you know exactly what i need. you do NOT know me. you do not know that given the opportunity i would stomp all over you just to prove a point, just on a matter of principle. you think i cant handle you... but i think you couldnt handle me if i truly unleashed my force. fuck you. i have more self respect than that. 030210 ... Lilac I dont know how much longer I can lay here 030213 ... elimeny and what is this new thing? what is this? we are playing a game... i am dodging you, and you are dodging me... and this is just not helping my pathetic situation. for a little while there, i had some confidence. for such a little while. and now i feel like the spawn of satan... and you... you toy with me. do you enjoy this? well, i wont fall, i will NOT give in to you. you dont know me. and you dont really want to. and, unlike every time before, i will NOT offer myself up this time. if you want to know, you can ask. i reach out to you sometimes, just a little bit, just to see if i will capture something warm... and there is nothing. oh god, i am SO NOT GOING THROUGH THIS AGAIN. stay away from me. i didnt invite you in. i didnt say you were welcome here. ill have you know i am PERFECTLY HAPPY in my solace. really, i am. sure, it can get lonely... but if i quarantine myself, i wont hurt anyone. ahhh, i see how you work. you know i cant hurt you. but you know you can hurt me. so im going to be very cautious with this intruder. and i shall tiptoe around the details. ohhhh, no you dont. not this time. i will not swallow my pride this time. you will not see me being weak. no way, man. im just.. im too scared to go through it all over again. 030224 what's it to you? who go blather from