weird_little_brain unhinged i don't have sex_dreams very often. but i suppose those are the kind of dreams anyone remembers. (no sex for five months is bound to make someone dream about it; that's not the weird part) in my dream, i had sex with his friend who blatantly hits on me everytime we've seen each other in recent months. my parents were sleeping on the floor (what?!) and then afterwards while i was naked, trying to get dressed, this guy i messed around with a lot in grad_school opened the door to his bedroom and started laughing. weird little brain. ok ok. i get it. i need some sex. 110108 ... I said it I meant it Im here to represent it Whether or not you like them - the person who blatantly hits on you has the balls to be honest. You like that - it turns you on. But your not supposed to like that - your parents, and our sexually repressed society is probably telling you that acting on those strong desires is wrong (slutty). Take my words with a grain of salt. It is my interpretation that your parents are asleep because you are embarrassed about expressing your sexual desires (outside of the internet.) On a deeper subconcious level you might find even more fulfillment if your parents were awake and happy to see you enjoying intense sexual pleasure. I've come to blatantly talk about sex with my parents - sometimes too much. My dad'd divorced and I feel like if he's ever going to get back into a relationship - he should be comfortable with sex. To be honest, I don't know if he ever will be. Everyone (especially women) is so embarrassed/hesitant about admitting to themselves that certain things turn them on. 110108 ... unhinged Actually my insecurities about sex don't have to do with my parents. They are very open about sex (or the lack there of). I've had some traumas in my life concerning sex so its on me. But I suppose subconciously I was dreaming about him because I conciously told myself he was more than a bad idea on that level. I've dated friends (although not at the same time) and that was a stupid mess. As much as he says he doesn't care who I'm with now, there is a part of him that would feel it if he knew I was fucking one of his friends. Maybe my weird little brain wants him to feel that. Sometimes meditation only makes me more confused 110108 ... unhinged (the_rainforest_mind and one of my library obsessions have led me to as much information on neuroscience especially related to depression, anxiety, and autism as i can get my hands on) 180730 what's it to you? who go blather from