that_was_that
.
i_once_kissed_a_girl
or
two
or
three
who
made
me
want
to
pay
their
bills
and
hold
them
close
but
family
won
i
once
fucked
a
boy
or
two
or
thirty
who
made
me
want
to
be
held
close
but
they
just
wanted
to
come
on
my
face
or
smack
me
up
like
in
their
favorite
porn
and
then
maybe
go
back
to
their
wife
i
don't
bother
anymore
either
way
it's
too
painful
231123
...
Skittles fan
As
someone
who
also
enjoys
all
the
tastes
of
the
rainbow
...
Some
are
sour
,
in
a
bad
way
Some
are
sweet
,
in
a
sometimes
good
way
,
but
not
good
in
the
long
term
for
your
health
Some
are
actually
not
what
you
thought
they
would
be
,
but
end
up
being
just
what
you
need
I'm
sorry
the
flavours
you've
had
have
not
been
the
best
.
I
hope
that
you
find
another
in
the
bag
that
is
exactly
what
you
want
.
231124
...
.
i
found
an
amazing
flavor
.
in
august
of
2019
.
we
talked
for
hours
the
night
we
met
.
then
he
treated
me
exactly
how
i
always
wanted
to
be
treated
.
and
then
covid
happened
and
i
haven't
seen
him
since
.
for
over
four
years
he
has
been
words
on
a
screen
.
when
i
really
needed
hugs
when
my
dad
was
dying
and
my
life
was
falling
apart
(
my
career
of
15
years
and
a
very
long
term
friendship
ended
)
he
was
just
words
on
a
screen
.
seems
to
be
the
story
of
my
modern
life
.
i'm
done
hoping
i
will
ever
have
anything
real
that
lasts
and
makes
me
feel
good
inside
and
out
.
my
life
has
been
saying
different
for
decades
and
hope
is
a
waste
of
energy
.
usually
i
am
ok
with
my
aloneness
now
.
it
has
been
a
constant
feature
of
my
life
for
so
long
i
have
grown
to
accept
it
.
usually
.
but
this
time
of
year
always
feels
cruel
to
those
of
us
who
don't
have
people
in
their
physical
space
to
celebrate
with
.
to
us
,
this
time
of
year
is
the
long
dark
that
echos
how
we
feel
inside
all
the
time
.
231124
...
.
and
thanks
for
your
hope
btw
.
clearly
i
myself
have
a
shortage
of
that
especially
on
the
topic
of
love
and
partnership.
i
know
i
come
across
as
whiny
and
petulant
on
this
topic
to
some
around
here
.
i'd
prefer
to
think
of
it
as
realistic
but
one
person's
realism
is
another's whiny
cynicism
.
231124
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