im_trusting_you girl_jane My heart moved up And caused that lump in my throat. I didn't like that lump there. So I cut out my heart, But I can't get back in my chest Where it belongs. It used to be in pieces. Somehow they've been Glued back together. Something's been added to it, And it's too big to fit back in my chest. So I'm trusting you to keep it. When it gets broken again, And the new part has been taken back, I'll take the pieces from you, And put them in the hole in my chest- Hoping that they'll mend. I'm trusting you to keep it in one piece. 020327 ... tatianna and i will always trust you because now i have no other option 040307 ... misstree how did this happen? when you first asked, i was wary stray venturing into house, but it was true; i trusted you. when you were ready to push, you asked, and it was true; i had tasted enough to believe your hand to be kind, no matter the action, and thus did not fear. when asking permission to go deep into the grey caves without my escort, you had proven previous trusts correct along every line, and i allowed it. and now? your compassion astounds me. i don't think i'm capable of mistrusting you. so now i just have to keep an eye on myself. 040308 ... blown cherry why does this statement sound so ominous? 040308 ... Death of a Rose because of the placement of a returned value system from the other person. Thrust upon them to follow in kind or disregard and discard. Placing somewhat of your fate in another's hands and thoughts. Scarey stuff children. "Never trust someone until they take a bullet for you." Me 2004 (I think). 040308 ... poison cherry i don't know why i said that. i guess it was asking for trouble, because you went and did just what i hoped you wouldn't. you treated it as a fucking joke. i was so ashamed. i went home and cried that night. 040308 ... megan 2 years isn't that long enough to learn to trust someone? yeah, i thought so too. it's just sometimes people don't live up to your expectations and sometimes people lie and sometimes people even mess up (imagine that!). and sometimes people love. and loving is forgiving, yes, but love will not lie down and let someone walk upon it. no, love will stand up and say no! i will not let you do that to yourself, and i will not let you hurt me. and you said ok, i will not do that. but you said you couldn't promise anything. and i know that's just "how you are", and i know that's being hardcore realistic, because really nobody can promise anything except one thing. and that one thing is to promise to try. please do that and i think my heart will finally be at rest. there are so many unknowns in the world today. sometimes we just have to keep our eyes open and take the plunge. please tell me you love me enough to change your ways. i'm willing to do anything. 040309 what's it to you? who go blather from