hidden_within_me oh pee um i don't love you as if you were the salt-rose, topaz or arrow of carnations that propagate fire: i love you as certain dark things are loved, secretly, between the shadow and the soul i love you as the plant that doesn't bloom and carries hidden within itself the light of those flowers, and thanks to your love, darkly in my body lives dense the fragrance that rises from the earth. i love you without knowing how, or when, or from where, i love you simply, without problems or pride: i love you in this way, because i don't know any other way of loving-- but this, in which there is no i or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand, so intimate that when i fall asleep, it is your eyes that i close. 010505 ... unhinged there is a person that wants to be happy that knows the truth and where it lies that can forgive and forget all the pain that knows pain is a way of life and there is no way to avoid that that i can't stop the world and all the bad things in it but i just wish that i wasn't the one making you cry 010506 ... lost the ability to be just like you. fuck with people just like you. hurt people just like you. i just cant bring myself to do it though. actually i wont let myself do it. 011002 ... girl_jane I need to do a spring cleaning of my thoughts...too bad spring isn't for another two and a half seasons. 020703 ... phil ~to be with lost's (above) deep in my soul there is a hole from a drill passing slowly through each of our chests it passed from you to me and will one day pass from me to someone else I cry for them I cry for you because both of you are just like me 020703 ... Dafremen Not "just like"...one and the same. They are part of you and you are part of them. The pain you pass on you pass to yourself, drilling yourself in the chest for a second and third time. Only the illusion stops you from realizing this. The illusion fed to you by little_brain and what he would have you see. Ignore little_brain. Only a fool hits himself in the hand with a hammer three times. Only masochistic idiots enjoy it when they do. 020703 ... epitome_of_incomprehensibility Hidden within me is an evil computer. Either that, or 0q29y b-84[-q hype See? I told you so. 050726 ... jane [[pablo_neruda]]? 050728 ... egger oh_mah_gawd, oh_pee_um. 050728 ... f hidden with in me is so much of this, so much, it needs to be dropped off somewhere to loosen the load, its too heavy for me to carry, to usless not to be shared so much energy swerling inside that needs refreshing 050728 ... megan a woman that is not afraid anymore under all this worry, all this anxiety, all this crap i am still hidden within me is independence, joy, and courage 050728 what's it to you? who go blather from