consuming_whole GibbyPhD I have a knack for consuming whole and spitting out the seeds of life, yet forgetting to plant them later on… This is a rationale of my psyche around you, because of the things in my heart I yearn to do. Is it Manipulation, is it Love, is it Psychosis, or just the fact I feel “complete” in your presence? I recognize what I want, what I crave, what I strive for and what I deserve in life. These virtues I have found, and so many more I had not expected, in someone that I cannot hold as my own. I shall not consume whole the apple from the tree of life, and leave temptation and desire to corrupt my perfect Adam… I think not these flighting thoughts of time and experience, only try and trust my instincts and nature to the extent of what God has given me. So I stand here, waiting for the divine answer to guide my way, for that glorious upcoming day… When everything I stand for and yearn for become one and my own universe will rejoice in song. I am tired of being everyone’s Personal Jesus, and I am tired of being my own Drill Sergeant in life. I am striving to be “me”, Be all that I can “be”, because in 2003, my motto will read, “Be Free 2 Find Me” And if that means I may need to make an unsolicited sacrifice to the God of Abraham, Then it shall be. After all, I feel I am in the selfish wrong, thinking not of others divine truths and futures, Once again consuming from them Life Force to feed my inner vampire, Inspiration to warm my soul, and Comfort to hold me tight into the night… And the last thing I would like to see is a rift in my happy family… So this is the choice I have… Do I take the Red Pill or the Blue? Oh lord help me be true… And awake to the virtues I learned from you… 030411 what's it to you? who go blather from