the_past_six_months unhinged healing_myself my_other_face reconciling who i was with who i am and who i want to be i realize finally all the ways i hurt myself all the ways they hurt me all the ways that place hurt me how i hurt others because of all that the years have been catching up with me and sometimes when i'm all alone i feel so damn old the life i've lived in the past decade so old this year has been pivotal 091211 ... Jurisprudence It's teased to heal a decade One that had me lost and pushing Against my fear and failure but with no sweet taste of a future that looked anything like what I identified with My mortality rankled and squeezed Squeezed my guts until I couldn't fear anymore Here I am to try again, trust and love again but turned inside out Nothing left to lose and want to win Everything 091212 ... unhinged ate up all my patience on_anger misplaced_love but i am back at the meditation center one of the meditation instructors that comes to cafe just in case someone might need him said 'we are your family; come whenever you need us' and i am back to it i forgot some of the quiet_realizations i made before us i forget myself so easily 100527 ... In_Bloom So much love but love and good intent aren't a cure for what ails as much as I've wanted it to be, for two. 100528 ... Ouroboros trying to get that round peg into the square hole 100729 ... h|s|g diameter, simple_math sometimes can make up for qualitative differences. 100729 ... Ouroboros reorganizing my inside and out to allow for new light/life/energy to be received properly. 100810 ... unhinged i_want_my_life_back whatever you have to tell yourself to leave me alone i am tired of the drama of the mental/verbal abuse of the take take take i am finally so tired that i am ready and willing to walk_away but getting nasty voicemails and text messages on my phone isn't helping either of us change my number? go stay on the other side of town with friends? exhausted 100810 ... unhinged may just have been the most intensely horrible of my whole wretched life 121022 ... unhinged jesus 200727 what's it to you? who go blather from