let_it_bleed_now_let_it_wash_away sab there isnt enough pain there isnt enough blood to fix this to stop this today i sat reading my bok on the train and a girl sat across from me tought attitude loud hair she sat and stared out the window a tear edged it's way out from under her sunglasses then another then another rolled down her cheeks making track marks on her face she continued to sit there a didnt say anything i stayed, reading my book my knuckles are grated and weeping clear my legs are running red these little hurts cannot drown out these big hurts i am hurt i am hurting i cant do this anymore today i begged an otter over sms to hold me together i can't do this by myself i should be able to do this by myself after all myself is all i have now we live by the choices we make [you choose your level of involvement] i hate with an ager that burns magnesium bright and most of it is aimed at me i was stupid to think there would be no repercussions i was stupid to think that the telling was the hardest part i am falling apart the otters race but the damn is broken and the broken children damned and the beaver whispers no longer but i am too stupid too stuborn to hear i was never any good at taking advice i was never any good at being truly strong slater bugs should realise that hatred does not make up for lack of strength their words coming out of my pen empty hollow hate i might still die from this 040223 ... Syrope that's beautiful sab. i don't mind the poison seeping out. i mind holding it in; i mind slowly dying so that you can feel better about yourself. i am not ashamed - the blood and sweat and tears i leak will wash away. the demons you hug to you will slay you. "and i sat watching a flower as it was withering i was embarrased by its honesty" ~bright eyes "no lies, just love" 040223 what's it to you? who go blather from