im_too_tired_for_these_wars sab i dont have the energy to fight these petty little things for a company i hate i dont have the resources to keep this up all i got is devoted to holding me together. i dont have anything to spaire for this fuck off fuck off jsut_leave_me_alone 040616 ... incoherent you always said the truth turns earth and it did it turned this earth red with the blood of our words spilled carelessly in repost slipped clumsily to the hilt as the boom of shock thundered us thankfully deaf and lashes wrougth iron from tears and its funny when I first heard you speak i envisioned a garden with spring rain and new growth the truth turning earth in harvest instead were locked in word made cages finding it hard to breathe this was never meant to be a war so much went so wrong so quickly a ship sucked suddenly under caught in riptide currents of half coherent thought culled from lack of sleep but still there is no salve to soothe what has been broken here only the ash of vanished flame my brokngrrl with tired wings all i want is for you to find peace 040616 ... Syrope today driving home i realized that i felt like myself again. and i wondered how it was possible to thank someone for that but at night you're distant, tired. i have become boring. apparently. things i've blocked come back to me i feel the hair on my arms prickle the same way they did the last time i screamed "don't touch me" at you i've ruined this again i wasn't even myself. usually being myself gets me a recipe that i was tired of having. at least i can pretend my way through a beginning. but you didn't have to give me the scenic glass elevator ride up before pushing me off. one of the lower floors would have been fine 040617 what's it to you? who go blather from