i_want_to_trip endless desire "i want to trip" she said it best when she said, "i want to trip" there's this ride on the santa cruz boardwalk where you strap yourself down, lying on your belly and it pretends you're a plane. you zoom up in the air, up into the sky, and then, as you come around the circle, flying above the ocean--the mist in your hair-- it brings you down a few feet before the ground. and everytime it brought me crashing towards cement, i imagined i was jumping from some high building and the sidewalk was nearing my face, and i was going to splatter into a million pieces with all the blood and pieces and the muck. i like the idea that i could die every time i 'rounded the circle. "i want to trip" she said it best when she said, "i want to trip" because i do want to trip. i want to trip and fall-- free fall, and never hit the ground, but just have it looming before my eyes, terrorizing me with each deadly possibility. [8/3/05] 061025 ... endless desire the funny thing is, i had never tried acid before i wrote this, nor did i equate a "trip" to getting high so that wasn't what i meant. i didn't know the secret then. 061025 ... e_o_i becomes a moralistic free-thinker Pah. The secret is imagination. You have imagination. You don't need drugs. 061025 ... e_o_i becomes a moralistic free-thinker Pah. The secret is imagination. You have imagination. You don't need drugs. 061025 ... endless desire hahaha that's the thing: they tell you, you do acid, you know the "answer" to the question. you'll be in on "the secret", but then you do acid and realize that there's no possible way for you to answer a question you don't know because you'd have to make up a question and everyone's would be different because life is all relative. so the secret is truly whatever you want it to be. god i could go on and on about acid like a quack and it might only make sense to someone who's done. or maybe not to them at all. maybe to only the people who taught me to trip. it's one huge mindfuck and i love it. 061025 ... e_o_i The secret isn't drugs, it's imagination. I'm going on the ultimate trip, beyond the infinite. To boldly go to... the ultimate derivative, beyond the split infinitive! I insist. See how crazy I am already? :) 061025 ... we ant stop here this is birdmad country i've played it both ways and enjoyed them each 061025 ... misstree "so the secret is truly whatever you want it to be." miss e.d. was ripe for bokononism. and drug experiences. leary had a lot of wonderful things to say about acid, not so much as a brain expander per se, but a tool, especially useful in clinical setting for reimprinting. it can be useful. it can be expanding. it can be mental masturbation. it just gives you a different filter to put things through, the rest is up to you. love the opening piece, by the way. that's what i wanted to say more than anything else. :P 061025 ... endless desire whoa i looked up bokononism and now i want to read that book. have you read it, misstree? man, there's a lot of books i want to read now. there's a million things i want to do. we_all_go_too_soon. but thank you for what you said about what i originally meant in this blathe, haha. 061026 what's it to you? who go blather from