how_can_i_tell_him andrea how do I let him in on my secret? the things that make me cry out in the midst of my nightmares & cause me to sleep with a light on? I don’t want his pity, his sympathy to hear his voice say the "I’m sorry" I’ve heard all too much I only wish for him to understand the shadowy elements of me & for him to realize why I’m so hesitant & cautious at times but how can I say all I want to without him feeling as though he must walk on broken glass? I’ve already swept it al up soon, I hope I’ll be strong enough to throw it all away what words should I choose to not frighten him or make him feel he’s taking advantage of me? I hate that I am damaged goods & wonder if that will change his mind how can I tell him? how? copyright 2000 000828 ... krimilda that i've been waiting for him... that talking to him makes my senses collapse and my inner beauty arise 021113 ... stupid girl that i may owe the money it takes to see him to pay for my speeding ticket? 021114 ... "him" when i looked it up like i said i would i kind of knew if i read it right, it's an automatic five bills plus thirty days with no DL 021114 ... eklektic tonight i'm going to talk to him. i'm afraid to. but i can do it. my mom said she prayed for me to be strong today. i'm ready. i hope i'm doing the right thing. 021114 ... p2 how did it go? 021121 ... eklektic surprisingly well. he was angry, but not at me, and we talked again that night about the situation. but things are ok ... for now. 021124 ... Syrope that he deserves better than what he's going through. that i'm here for him, and i want him. that i wouldn't mind being his rebound sex, if he'd promise to hold me afterwards. that i can't look at him when he talks without wanting to kiss him. that he should stay, even if it is after 4 am. 021125 ... Syrope that he deserves better than what he's going through. that i'm here for him, and i want him. that i wouldn't mind being his rebound sex, if he'd promise to hold me afterwards. that i can't look at him when he talks without wanting to kiss him. that he should stay, even if it is after 4 am. 021125 ... Syrope that he deserves better than what he's going through. that i'm here for him, and i want him. that i wouldn't mind being his rebound sex, if he'd promise to hold me afterwards. that i can't look at him when he talks without wanting to kiss him. that he should stay, even if it is after 4 am. 021125 ... Syrope jesus christ... 021125 what's it to you? who go blather from