hesitant jonh to keep writing for i do not know why i feel inclinded to try and spew out as much as i can in this moment. i often hold back and words and expression i lack but here the shit i will stack. 030122 ... please dont be selfish i wish you would hold back, for the rest of us 030122 ... IWishICouldGoWithDavid Please understand that this is more than necessary right now. And stop making threats. 030123 ... Piso Mojado talking tonight with matt: "i dont know how i feel about dating a girl who smokes. with erin, it was like i imagined, sleezy, lighting up and filling the room with smoke after we did anything sexual." 030223 ... kay-tie im hesitant to tell you whats really going though my head at this moment. i'll shrug it off and say im tired. i'll do anything to keep this from you. "friends dont lie" - - im ashamed im hesistant. dont hold this against me. i love you 040406 ... Sona I hold my breath. I don’t know if she notices. She’s fuzzy at the edges. But so sharp up close to me. I hesitate. She’s hesitant. We’re both lost in the blur The heady aura of the other Where do I end? Where do we begin? I realize I’m that sweet moment why we both give pause Reluctant to be two Returning to memories of one Who_put_these_bodies_between_us? 211201 ... Raina wish i were brave wish i had a clue wish i didn't already know that none of this is mutual i try to contain these thoughts try to stay out of your way i'll process this on my own something telling me i don't need to tell you 211202 ... daf even very private people need some space to get it out..examine it..reassess.. Sorry do0d. Berating you here is on my list of regrets. 211203 what's it to you? who go blather from