everyone_leaves Mahayana ...in one form or another [what are you waiting for] : lets do it again & again : 030623 ... kss that used to hurt a lot more until I realized my part in that equation 030623 ... silent storm do you not understand WHY i feel the need to go when were arguing? ive told you time and time again.. what good does it do if i stay and continue to fight with you? none! we both just become more and more frustrated and upset with ourselves and each other, and i end up saying things that i dont mean. things that i regret saying the moment the words escape me. and i hate myself when i let that happen! i hate hurting you like that just b/c i want you to feel as much pain as i do! and i dont fucking want to put either one of us through that. so i go. all i fucking want to do is sleep it off.. calm down so i can talk to you later rationally. i cant do that when im upset. just because i leave an argument does NOT mean that i am leaving you! so basically, if i stay, im fucking. if i go, im still fucked. i just cant win. not that it matters. ive told you all this before. you just dont understand. either that or you just dont care. but you never want to hear my voice or read my words again, right? well this is the last time then. im giving you what you asked for. oh, and thanks for calling me a fucking asshole. that was really nice. you know, after all the complaining (and for good reason) you did after id say things that hurt you, id hope youd not sink to my level and do the same thing to me. but i guess what goes around comes around, even if it makes us hypocrites. oh and one more thing.. i love you. but im sure that doesnt matter anymore either. 030623 ... ambermoon and some day i will too. i love you but theres nothing i can do stop this. 040216 ... Syrope but not everyone leaves something behind. i can't forget you, and it's driving me insane. even coming to this page - you claim you've never written here, but god...do these words reek of you. 040216 ... Vylsefter everyone_leafs born prosper blown from the tree silent descent to the ground fluttering tree_leaves 040216 what's it to you? who go blather from