and_having_just_read_what_i_posted as usual i feel really, really stupid. i always write these things thinking no one is ever gonna read them. but after ive posted them, and seen them there with other stuff people have written, i go:SHIT! and i feel stupid again. that seems to be what my life is about. 021207 ... screwing for virginity i see all the typos and mispelling of words that i know i know how to spell. 021207 ... p2 i have to wonder what the heck was my point? 021207 ... no reason i shake my head and accept the craziness. 021208 ... silentbob I only do that when i feel like what i said was blind or ignorant. you shouldn't regret typing anything. and if you wouldn't say it now you just have to understand that the You of back then HAD to say it. or something. but yeah. don't blather in the hopes that someone will read it. blather in the hopes that having blathered it helped you and made you feel better. 021209 ... dear bobby i love you bobby, you are very right. 021209 ... me anyone here? 021214 ... me... yeah - having blathered it - i feel better...i dont disagree - the point was, i get embarassed when i think about other people reading my posts..dont ask me why - but i do...so umm, yeah..that was what i meant. 030210 ... MDogMA complete agreement with all i read some posts and try to think what the hell mind set created that awfulness, but I'm still new enough that i have this wonderful ability to shrug it off to inexperiance, hope I can stay a beginner until i die. 030210 ... Syrope he felt sorry for me and started contributing to my 3-hugs-a-day-to-survive-but-6-to-be-happy quota he asked me questions i didn't want to answer, and made me cry - which i haven't done in a long time and now can't stop doing she forgot her problems because i needed cheering up, and we decided together that i could better direct my resources towards some other guy i winced and realized just how many ways what i said could be taken, and you never take it the way it needs to be... 030210 ... no reason i realise i_wish for a lot of things 030422 ... falling_alone i've realized i hit "blather" twice 040528 what's it to you? who go blather from