my_body_still_remembers SleepieCloud It could be the way your lips part only after they're pressed against mine. The way they fit over mine as if maybe our lips were mold for each others. It could be your hands, strong and sure, holding my hips against yours as I lean perilously backward and never feel afraid. It could be your skin warm and alive under my palms as I hold you against me. My body still remembers each touch and caress... the pleasure and pain. I'd love to forget. 080614 ... Doar . 080615 ... Soma Tiny broken vessels on my arm A bloody maze of purple veining out like spiderworks Every ache, ever dull throb that courses through each bruise I bore from you And when I wake up in the morning, and look at the messed sheets, and wonder if I had bad dreams that caused me to toss about in the night... And when I don my gray clothes, and ponder the bruises on my body... Although my mind will have already covered you, hidden you, under layers of better thoughts, and in darkest, most hidden rooms to be forgotten. My body still remembers. My body bears your name. 080615 ... In_Bloom The truth of you The re awakening of me Positive tension between opposing limbs given full leniency You said some burn with more intensity and you did not lie 080818 ... Ouroboros The pain. The most pain I have ever been in. When I sneeze, my head still aches. I have never quite felt so much like I was going to die. Being completely out of control of my own body. Unbearable head pain, puking like clockwork every fifteen minutes. I could barely speak, had to pull together all my inner strength to open the door before puking. Etc. My_body_still_remembers that pain. I'm scared it will come back. 080818 ... unhinged the way you held me down. so i don't care if you liked me. i'm done with you. 080818 ... past the way you felt beside me, warm and close. 080818 ... Ouroboros you kissed my neck on the left side, when you weren't crying out. i still cannot bear to have my neck touched at all. 121107 what's it to you? who go blather from