mountains_and_valleys kookaburraexperiments. you. you are. you are looking. you are looking out. you are looking out of. you are looking out of the. you are looking out of the window. I. I am. I am staring. I am staring at. I am staring at you. this. this is. this is my. this is my last. this is my last chance. this is my last chance to. this is my last chance to have. this is my last chance to have you. you. you are. you are waiting. you are waiting for. you are waiting for me. t h o u g h y o u d o n ' t k n o w i t . and the fear of your rejection is a cliff face that i cannot climb, but you are brave, lonely and lovely and i will watch you from afar for that is all that i know how to do. because i've dug myself a canyon that you cannot see into, it is too low for you to bother yourself with, for I am not worth the trouble anyway. you would hate me if you knew me more than you know me now, and that is why i'll save you from your own kindness and i will do whatever it takes to keep you safe even if it means pushing you away, because i will make you hate me if that's what it takes to save you. m ou nta in s and v l l e y s and you 041107 ... kookaburra *valleys ah, well, it hasn't been perfected yet 041107 ... a "point" Staircase_and_Waterfall 041107 ... anne-girl misses kookaburra 050630 ... three words mountains_and_valleys talk_to_me fold 050710 ... spilt_milk by becoming paranoid about things being weird she started making things weird herself, losing reality to her daydreams and taking my shade with her. things that have been glossed into the hum of the past walk again, she is afraid of what i'm going to think, when in reality neutrality is the only answer she'll get. "its better to not begin than to stop halfway through a thought" words just don't seem to flow at the moment. she's in a valley, i'm scaling the mountain, she's been left behind, i can only see her at a distance, she fears the gossip that will never reach my ears. 050710 ... egger i miss kookaburra too. and i enjoyed the spilt_milk piece. 050711 ... spilt_milk "you sound so sad" "i'm fine" "you sure?" "yup" "poor guy" the conversation goes on, is going on, i feel like an ass posting this, i feel like an ass not saying 'leave me alone' and id feel like an ass if i said that too... 050725 ... thieums Been walking up Been walking down Been walking on the endless road Walk walk walk 130308 what's it to you? who go blather from