deliberate_wordchoice unhinged vaguely_amazing irony ironic dramatic_irony 080130 ... faedrus khan What the hell was that? If I knew more I might have more feeling for it; but it's so vague it's barely poetry; please tell me more! I've felt that way about so many things; but which thing are you refering too? When I try to write poetry I try to tell somebody something that they totally agree with until the end when they realize that it's something they were on the other side of...this blath is so obtuse that i'm left in the dark...whatup? 080130 ... ever dumbening my father's students used to joke about how slowly he would preach and teach, deliberate indeed. 080130 ... p it's a list, not poetry. (not that lists can't be poetry) 080131 ... unhinged when i write, i like to be obtuse to give people the room to add their own experience to my words. i like to juxtapose things that wouldn't or maybe shouldn't be put together. i think of words as art in some cases. what is language really but just a bunch of symbols that could never mean exactly the same thing to each person? so sometimes words are just a medium to me, like color, paint, paper, glue. an impressionist thing where the wide strokes and bigger picture are more important than the little pieces that make it up. most often i am very deliberate about it. (even when i write intoxicated) and most often i'm not trying to pin down an exact meaning, but making an impression like in the (impressionist art movement) sense of the word. and i feel very over important and self inflated to refer to my own writing here as art. my writing here is the definition of this place. sometimes i rant straightforward with my sailor's mouth and my bitter sarcasm. sometimes i feel my prose as verse and my verse as prose. sometimes i just want to vomit out all the rogue words running around the inside of my head. before i wanted to be a musician, i wanted to be a writer. and over the years i have found words to be the best and most comforting therapy. i do not use words to always communicate at face value. i think of words as more obtuse and prettier than that. but i am pretty deliberate about it. just the way monet was deliberate at turning all those dots and swaths and lumps into something beautiful when you looked at it from far away. 080131 ... unhinged or if you are questioning me about my wordchoice, you are standing too close. 080131 ... z my best work results from a self induced trance-like state where i inhabit a feeling and report what comes as it occurs with as little intention or editing as possible. it is very difficult to hover between intent and drivel. 080131 ... unhinged . 130602 what's it to you? who go blather from