awake_for_good_this_time hsg1437 in a dream i wrote the words, "remember to be nice." they were instructions for what i kept forgetting when i became afraid at one point or another. in this fear i fell asleep. reached out to grab in ways which i couldn't clearly see the entire followthrough. every time i have a moment of true clarity, not only do i resolve to remain_awake in this but i remember that this resolution has been made over and over. the passage of time is a dream. when it's understood Wholey, it stands still; one wakes Up. for good. this: time. time then, or the perception of it as an unfoldment of seemingly disconnected events, is a nightmare stemming from fear. our intellectual clarity is limited by a lack of courage to (be nice to) believe in an alternate perception. i am determined to be nice even if i have to dispel every last fear i have before i lie down to sleep in peace. the only way i know how to implement this compassion is to consider other's points of views. hear their voice-in my sleep. sit down and listen and pray_for_peace. the unconscious does the work rearranging considerations to remember the missing peace. until everything fits without the constant rearranging, then nothing makes perfect sense. the big picture forms one conclusion: continuity of consciousness...under one condition: loving_kindness. there is no such thing as death. not forever anyway. we are learning how to live forever. when we hurt we learn to rest. actually, we rest so that we can learn. and we live again. we learn in order to not hurt. the system is a failsafe such that only peace and clarity and happiness can last forever. each pIece rearranges until they fit in pLace in pEace. i kept dreaming from pIece to pLace to pEace until i can clearly say, "I Love Everything." 070302 ... hsg1437 and_the_beat_goes_on 070529 ... unhinged i wake up often but now it is hard for me to open my eyes swollen puffy pressure always tired i roll back over at least four times in the morning back to sleep somewhere around noon i drag my ass out of bed to the neti pot and the coffee pot awake for good this time 070529 ... unhinged white_tara and her_seven_eyes often feel like all the hugs i have been missing 200628 what's it to you? who go blather from