should_i_call_him
alone i haven't called him for five days, I think
and messaged him for three

it's not really a big deal
but i keep thinking about him, and i've sporadically started crying a couple of times

I thought I was over him... I know I was
It was so nice being over him, such a happy feeling... but then i didn't see him for a week and suddenly i wasn't over him anymore

so i'm thinking about him again... again... again...

i want to call him... i don't know what i'd say, maybe hello and how are you, but those conversations never work, he always tells me to get to the point, when i don't have one, so i hang up and go cry some more

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blown cherry I know I didn't write that, but I could have. Well Alone, at least you're not alone in the way you feel. 041228
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alone feels happier 041228
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daxle The answer is always No, trust me. 041228
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alone i know that if i call him, it's going to be one of those conversations where i'm trying to be serious, and have something to say, and he's just kidding

because i'm saying things out of context, and making things awkward... trying to reach some kind of accord or something instead of talking about monkeys

sigh
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megan just call him
and let him hear you cry
people are always afraid of being the weaker one, the one that runs back after everything is over and done with
i say, screw it
who cares what anyone else thinks, this is between you and him
get it out, get it over with, and get on with life
it feels so much better
believe me, i know from experience
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misanthropic me the answer is always, no. 041230
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unhinged even without his phone number
i still wonder sometimes
should i call him
after over a year
should i even bother
and call him?

my answer is still no
after hearing his voice again
with nothing but a big pit in my stomach
at the sound of it
even when i still think of him fondly
my answer is still no

and after all this time
i still don't call him
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alone i knew that if i called him
it'd be the same as always
so i did anyway
all i learned was that he's much better than me
at xbox
we're_just_friends
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