overnight startfires everythings sposed to be better the next day. it usually is. or at least less harsh. 001029 ... silentbob My heart burns like hell tonight whenever your face comes to mine i cannot breathe i cannot eat and i just want to cry my emotions arent rich and cannot afford to be fucked with this much but i dont want chairty or petty cash specially from you yeah, the last thing i need right now is a fucking pity party i never ever thought id be saying these words (funny things, words) least of all to you. And then when i awoke still to find you there my intentions came streaming down my face i kissed you once on the cheek, kissed you twice on the neck, kissed you three times on your forhead, but never once on your mouth maybe im not as worse off as i feel inside but i hate myself more with every decision i make hanging up your poetry when id rather hang myself. maybe i just feel i cheated my emotions teasing them with someone i knew they could never have or maybe its cuz you're so far away and i just miss you i dont know what it is about you i just know now its more than it was i dont know why red fades before blue it just does. it just does. 001030 ... birdmad insomnia six hours of sleep in five days (not counting the strange delirous half-nap moments the threaten to overtake me but never quite follow through) 001119 ... god i'm beginning to experience something similar. 011222 ... ClairE A sleepover. It sounded neater somehow, like cheery hats. 011222 ... kick in the face things can change things can get worse overnight, into the day reality sets in 030123 what's it to you? who go blather from