thought_you_should_know yummychuckle you know how fucked up I am... I don't think straight. you are too good of a thing to go to waste, but I wasted you... I don't know how to apologize in the right way. I never know what to say. i always screw things up. 010624 ... unhinged that i have let you go i always hope that i run into you somewhere but when i do i hate you for it shush you broke me into a million little pieces and i know that you do not care it's still the same place with a different guy while i watch from a table near the door that catches the draft of the cold night air and you ask me what is wrong and i still don't have the heart to tell you that you are what is wrong that i still can't bear to look at you that i still find myself wanting you secretly alone the snowflakes fall like ashes you are always happy why do you act like you care? when is he going to figure you out? i hope sooner rather than later for his sake you are fake you are heartless you are selfish i have seen people like you that wallow in their momentary unhappiness while they destroy everyone around them in cycles of stupidity and attraction but i guess people like you will always be happy because people will always want your body but i wanted your heart and you just wanted to 'shoot the shit' i prayed to god that you wouldn't come back outside i_pleaded for reconciliation focusing on things that would not stay in focus sorry that i couldn't be a rockstar for you now just fucking leave 021109 ... acidshank is it apporopriate for me to think about him like that? i know it is. but soon it'll be much more 041123 ... tr thought_you_should_know that I love you. thought you care, maybe. 050203 ... stork daddy is the evidence properly before the magistrate sufficient to constitute probable cause? 050203 ... Evilair I love you, but it's nonsense to say so, because even if I told you, you would never be able to exactly know what it means.. all you can do is imagine how you would feel if you said the same, and hope that that is what I mean. (and all that while you know I hate love) 051203 what's it to you? who go blather from