i_missed_the_sunrise please start insulting me fuck. why does this always happen? either i'm sleeping through the fucker or i'm too bloody lazy to get out of bed. and shit, because i REALLY wanna photograph it. i will at some point, no doubt, but it fucking bothes me that i missed it on a morning like this. feels like i missed something imperative, like an exam. but it shouldn't feel that way. i should just think, "it's okay; wait for the next one." but i don't think that way. i don't think that way at all. shit. 020901 ... the corrector bothers 020901 ... werewolf well reallly what does a sunrise mean? there are certain shortlived species of mayfly where half of those born...where whole generations live in permanent dark or permanent light, and they see perhaps a sunrise but never a sunset and to them if they could be like us, it'd seem what? some cataclysmic event. but what is it to you? is it the mere thrill of amazing light? is it symbolic? does it remind you of the deep inborn relationship we'll always have with the sun, with its timing, and not the blind timing of earlier life, like the mayfly? What does that one friggin sunrise, or any sunrise for that matter mean that missing it was so horrible? Why do we allow ourselves to be called to these things, to be driven blindly into them without ever asking why they aren't driven blindly into us, or without ever asking if perhaps we could make it purposeful somehow. i missed the sunset. i was indoors. i missed the sunrise, i was indoors. i missed the sunrise, i was dreaming. and it makes you feel unmoored when there's no starting bell, when time becomes relative not in the world but in the mind. 020901 ... werewolf god i wish it was as easy as missing a sunrise, because i missed the point. 020901 ... silentbob you fell asleep with your head on my chest 020901 ... devalis the window faced the wrong way but in your eyes perpetual sunrise and a warmth that could not fade away 020901 ... silentbob cuz i kept watching you 020904 ... myplasticmind too early...mornings suck, waking up sucks....sunrises are better when your in bed sleeping. now sunsets on the other hand.... 020904 ... CJ I missed the sunrise the dawn of a new day. A new day in my life when it exactly began I can not tell you. 020904 ... . . 050611 what's it to you? who go blather from